The Silence Between Effort and Results

I’m trying so hard to keep showing up. I’m putting in the hours: learning new tools, improving my portfolio, posting online, doing the research. And yet... nothing seems to move. No clients. No emails. Just silence.

It’s one of those moments where you start to question yourself. Like... what else am I supposed to do? You see other people getting booked out, talking about new clients, launching offers... and you’re happy for them... but also wondering, what about me?

I know I have value to bring. I know I’m good at what I do. But it’s the waiting that gets heavy. The uncertainty. The part no one really talks about when you decide to start your own biz: the emotional toll of believing in something that hasn’t fully shown up yet.

Some days, I wake up motivated and ready to crush it. Other days, I just feel like curling up, because it’s exhausting trying to hold on to faith when everything still feels so far away.

But even in my frustration, I care. I’m tired of waiting for the opportunity to give, but I still move. I still take action, because the moment I stop, it feels like giving up... and I don’t want to give up. On the days I do nothing, I feel like I’m not progressing, so I move anyway, even if there’s still nothing to show. Deep down, I know I’m planting seeds that will eventually sprout... and maybe, one day, all the opportunities will come at once.

Still, I wonder: what’s the difference between these VAs who are getting booked and me? Is it mindset? Are they working harder? What are their reps... what are they doing that I’m not? That’s where the doubt starts to creep in. It’s like a quiet ache that asks, what is it about me that they’re not choosing? Not wanting?

This isn't the mindset I want to be in, but realistically it's hard to be in this enthusiastic chippy mood when you feel like your hard work isn't rewarding you.

And yet, I’m still here. Writing this. Showing up. Even when it hurts. Because giving up is the worst I can do after all this hard work.

Here is a little picture of my furry assistant name Azul, who helps me when I spiral. I hired him to be my emotional support and he does a great job at it! Hopefully, he can also be yours.

Your Bilingual VA,